Last stop.

being in the hotel room,

comfortable and cozy setting.

sitting in front of the desk,

with just the table lamp on.

i do enjoy this moment,

it gives me a sense of peacefulness and comfort.

and thoughts/feelings start to flow in as well.

still remember how i ponder whether should i go for a holiday

as the return date will only be 29th

that means it i would miss it

hoping to do one last thing for you,

to give it a good closure. 

well, my choice was to leave.

as someone told me this

“Do you really think she cares? Her special one will be doing something for her and who are you now? You will be heartbroken once again”

spot-on indeed.

that day, it really broke the smallest hope i have for “us”.

heard about the truth, cried right away.

trying my best to hide all those tears.

actually i do know that i need to let go long ago

i do know that this is sooner or later thing

but being me, i will not want to admit it until the fact literally hit me right on the face.

time to let go, i chose to leave.

sorry for this but hope you do understand how i feel.

reality is harsh, this painful feeling is real.

but i know i will be better in time.

no one can predict what will happen next,

so let’s follow the flow.

somehow, i no longer trust love and not even people around me.

really expect the unexpected.

damn, hate myself for being a weakling.

please don’t cry kaman, please don’t. my heart hurts that bit tonight.

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